You can talk with someone for years, everyday, and still, it won't mean as much as what you can have when you sit in front of someone, not saying a word, yet you feel that person with your heart, you feel like you have known the person for forever.... connections are made with the heart, not the tongue. 

I used to think I knew everything. I was a "smart person" who "got things done," and because of that, the higher I climbed, the more I could look down and scoff at what seemed silly or simple, even religion.

But I realized something as I drove home that night: that I am neither better nor smarter, only luckier. And I should be ashamed of thinking I knew everything, because you can know the whole world and still feel lost in it. So many people are in pain-no matter how smart or accomplished-they cry, they yearn, they hurt. But instead of looking down on things, they look up, which is where I should have been looking, too....

 Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things: comfort, love, and a peaceful heart.

It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it's so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn't come back. You're left so alone that you can't explain. 

“When clouds of pain loom in the sky
When a shadow of sadness flickers by
When a tear finds its way to the eye
When fear keeps the loneliness alive
I try and console my heart
Why is it that you cry? I ask

This is only what life imparts
These deep silences within
Have been handed out to all by time
Everyone’s story has a little sorrow
Everyone’s LIFE has a little SUNSHINE

No need for water in your eyes
Every moment can be a new life
Why do you let them pass you by?
Oh heart, why is it that you cry?” 
                                        
                                         Javed Akhtar

I  no longer believe  in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I am beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because she was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to bond together.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

We cannot win in team situations or in relationships by ourselves. It is like trying to pick up a pencil with only one finger..... Even if that one finger is extremely strong, it will prove almost impossible to pick up that pencil unless you use your other fingers or some other part of your hand. Teamwork is a bit like using all of your fingers. Each one is unique and contributes something different, but they unite in pursuit of a common goal.

A couple of weeks ago I was suddenly hit by depressing thoughts.... I somehow felt that my purpose of having been born had been fulfilled and I, thus, did not want to live anymore. I felt that all my earthly tasks and responsibilities were over.....

Please don't get me wrong, at no stage did I think of bidding the world adieu, it is just a thought that has been nagging me.... and let me confess to you all that I am quite quite unhappy..... the grass is no longer green, the sun is just not bright and the skies are absolutely dark.

What is the cause of my problem.... is it mid-life crisis? Has anyone of you ever gone through such emotions? If so how did you come out of it?